Part I of 130th Journal 25
July 2014
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When you begin your 130th Journal, the question
obviously underlying doing so is; ‘what has been…’ ‘gained? …learned?
..achieved? …the serving purpose or useful purposes???
Etc. etc. etc. to all of these journals?
A recent anonymous gift literally at my homes front door left with it a
note, it in-part shared; ‘PS you should journal more often, you be surprise how
many people gain strength in their faith from your teachings. Well as you would
say God speed Karen…” This encouraged this heart so, and to be honest had no
clue anyone noticed. The sharing here is pretty quietly done. I do share at fb
when I have updated my “other hat” but that is about it. This also convicted my
spirit to press on with the sharing here, I need not be a scholar, or
theologian, or writer (proper sentences and spelling elude me regularly) or
anything more than i am, a believer that reads the Bible, journals, and shares
what it found there. Another part of the
note read, “Very proud of you Karen, you have come a long way in your faith
with God and your art work is incredible amazing!” That one brought a tear to
my eye, of embrace. I spend a lot of
time alone these days, my life and work just is in solitude… not a choice, just
is. Funny when I began journaling I
started my time to do so before the sunrise, because that was the ONLY
quiet-time that I had alone. That is how
this became named “In His Light… Before The Dawn.” It holds still both the figurative and the
literal translation.
We all have different personalities, life circumstances, ways… and even
gifts. We each embrace, nurture, share
them in different ways. Do not consider
myself evangelical- can’t help though sharing my faith. Generally its done gently- I HOPE- anyways.
For personally, as we all have- I have been hurt by religious zealots. Who or what are they? Saul before Paul, is a Biblical example.
Legalistic rule followers of their man made interpretations of God’s Word.
Christianity- as with every walk in this life has its hypocrites and
crazy’s that give what is actually a good- a bad
GOD is GOOD- Believing in Him is good too. It’s more than that though, to walk in faith
WITH God. Because guess who else believes in God, and His Word- satan… and he
shutters. (“What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for
us, who can be against us?” Romans 8:31 full context chapter 8 or in part 8:31-
39 this passage)
I have heard a lot of friends tell me they are ‘spiritual’ but not
‘religious’… I pray that when God points
me out of a crowd He calls me ‘faithful’.
This faith walk is a life long journey of being sanctified… this is my
130th Journal of seeking God’s Truths. Guess what?
I haven’t ‘arrived’ yet! NONE of
us do this side of heaven!
Who is God? Simply – God is
Love. God is Light<>< Scripture: This is the message we have heard from Him
and declare to you: God is light, in Him there is no darkness at all. 1John1:5
So…test the spirits in all that is done, where are you standing or
stepping toward? …Light, GOOD, or not? Because another very simple truth is
that there can be no union with the light and the dark. It is physics impossible, as well as a
spiritual one. Another truth that may
help you decide which is the better way to go… The LIGHT dispels the dark… every time!
IF you are feeling darkness consuming your way, pray to God that He may
come and light your way with His Way—that by the way, put simply is my faith
walk… A daily battle too… for just like
every 24 hours has light, it also has darkness.
Hence, the name of this time that I spend with the Lord studying the
Word “In His Light… Before The Dawn.” Pre-dawn, Not only is that the darkest part of the day,
it is when the light shines the brightest too, meaning, when it makes the greatest
impact. Having great faith doesn’t mean darkness won’t come any longer – it
simply means you never need stay there alone, and you can always have a way for
it to be dispelled.
Do believe over time have developed the passion for all to know the
Word of God as the LIVING Word of God that it is; God breathed to us to be our breath of life,
relevant to every breath we take in our today’s.
I’m not here to judge how you read it, or for you to judge how i read it, simply sharing how i do. Its way more than historical- or 2000 years
old as some like to claim as its irrelevance.
My opinion differs. Do believe
God’s truth, is God’s Word, God Breathed.
AND, one cannot read God’s Word with a sincere heart and not have Gods
heart fill your heart more and more.
Do believe also it is not for me to pick and choose what part of God’s
Word to believe or not. You either
believe Gods Word or you don’t. Take
note, with that statement comes a footnote; you cannot take Gods Word out of
context or change it either. Cover to
cover is the God breathed. Perhaps why
my life verse came to be what it is, for it contains both OT and NT, it speaks
to each heart without prejudices, in my humble, not-theologians opinion. 2Cor4:6
For God, who said, “Let light shine out of darkness,” made His light shine in
our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the
Face of Christ. <><<><<><
Noting that God said this at the Creation and God says it again in the
new creation or new birth. (Gen.1:2-4) Darkness dispelled by the light of the
Gospel. When I was a new believer and
quoting this scripture I use to put a ‘ … ‘ in place of ‘in the face of Christ.’ A dear Godly prayer
partner when they heard me say it that way, gently proclaimed ‘you left out the
most important part!’ I, in this faith walk, have come to learn just how true
that comment is “in the face of Christ” is
‘The light of the knowledge of the glory of God.’ Over the years have learned the rest of
another scripture too “The truth will set you free” That whisper- the one that
ultimately led me to here – after seeking the truth in oh so many ways. That full God breathed is John 8:31-32. To the Jews who had believed Him, Jesus said,
“If you hold to My teachings (KJV
word) you are really My disciples. Then,
you will know the TRUTH and the TRUTH will set you free”
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Not philosophical truth but the truth that leads to salvation. Free equals, free from sin, not from
ignorance.
On this faith walk, I have sought the truth, met the Truth, and have
come to know the freedom of abiding in the Truth.
Jesus answered, ‘I AM the way,
the Truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father accept through Me’ John
14:6
This part 1 of entry. In this new age of instant sound bites am
learning need to share sound bites not the sonnet. A picture paints a thousand
words – why believe was made an Artist… and given journaling for my many
thoughts. Every day, is not needed to be
shared… but sometimes I guess I am to share beyond my quiet-time chair, what
have come to call
“In His Light…Before The Dawn”
The prayer in part: …as stand at this crossroads, stop, pause, seek
Your ancient of ways (Jer 6:16 paraphrased in prayer) that lead to Your Good
ways in my way. Help please God. Several book marks from the studying are at
hand: 1 Thes 1:1 through CH2; Book of Jonah,; Psalms 139,140,141. An Exhibit which has its foundation on Matt
3:16-17 “At That Moment…” paint the Trinity = a life call beyond one painting,
one exhibit. The Trinity 2Cor13:14
Grace…Love…Fellowship. Cannot have one
without the other…, is indeed this life’s call. Six months left to prepare God, before
hanging the exhibit, may all that see, see that the work that has been done,
has indeed been done by God… simply because of continual faith walk that is
said, by faith in YOU not me. May Your
wise building in me, be the foundation AND the completed work. Red letters… “Put this money to work” I pray
am doing in a manner that Your gifts and talents multiply for YOUR honor and
glory. To pay each debt now the miracle hope.
As sanctification is a step by step – so is this. What is impossible for man, is NOT for
God. All things are possible for
God. To have to repay each and even
overflowing from that exceedingly more than can imagine giving, with also the ability to attend all that you know desire to…Knowing desire is not need. YOUR will be done.
Protect me also from the unscrupulous attacks too God and the stealing
of my ways as their ways. In the lesson
of Jonah, do see must love with grace and fellowship to ALL-- for YOUR hope is
that ALL are saved. Don't run away. Speak. God again I lay all
down to YOU and that JOY in Your Sovereignty.
You know the need at every spot for every person beyond what we see. Thank you to YOU may put my trust. Inspire me please God. Be favor please God… with ability. Be my mission… way and service God- In Jesus’
name Godspeed Amen.’
PART
II of 1st entry of 130th Journal 27 July 2014
This journal begins 6 months to the day an exhibit “At That Moment…” is
to be hung. Today marks 6 months to the
day that the reception for that exhibit opens it up formerly to the
public. Ironically publicly in the
secular market, a painting that has been rejected is the only painting in the exhibit like it, but it is also the cornerstone. A painting that took 3 Bibles worn out over fifteen
plus years of footnoting the same thought at the same scripture, Matt 3:16-17
to paint. A literal illustration of how
inspired to ‘paint the trinity’ {the footnote I wrote every time reading this
passage, but never knew how that was even going to ever be possible}
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| 'At That Moment...' oil by K Hitt copyrighted |
“At That Moment…” illustrates just that as described in The Word. Who can paint the Trinity- an unseen, an
unknown, a mystery—yet known as clearly feel God breathed is God’s Word giving
us our very breath Godspeed. Yet just as the wind, unseen.
Again I am NO theologian or scholar—simply a believer in God’s Word as
the Living Word of God, and Jesus is our Word made flesh, our way our truth and
our life. A great mystery to paint,
simply my hearts beat, as pray that God may know my heart and make within me a
pure heart more and more each day. An
inspiration to illustrate came to be painted after many a year of it being
pondered. Prompted to do- yet never
confident could, until when a perceived need arose. Red letters “She did what
she could” from another passage- ‘Jesus Anointed At Bethany’ is a God’s living
Word to this heart too, and often its peace beyond understanding in troubling
times. Simply a picture paints a
thousand words and this word in Matt 3:16-17, long inspired the desire to
‘paint the Trinity’ that finally came to be when felt my painting it could
serve a need. That need, A fund raiser
for a building-less church, and its painting to hang wherever God provides
their church building home to be. The
God speed remains in His hands. These
hands simply inspired to paint a mystery, didn’t even know its title at the
time, just its subject, models for it, and why.
Sharing God’s inspirations by the way sometimes can be very very
difficult thing to do. Because quite frankly
– on the side of ‘its not done yet, it’s still in the works’—can leave one
looking a little loony as working out the details. At least I’m not prompted to build an ark in
my front yard. Like any illustration to
be painted it needs models, if people are a part of it. It gets a little odd asking for them to model, when
the illustration is of Matt 3:16-17 and the hand written margin footnote is
‘paint the Trinity’ Let’s just say
Pastor Matt and Mike M were good sports when I asked them to get in the gulf
with specific clothes on for me. Yup,
another Godspeed.
Surely it is no coincidence as remembering all of this now—as 6 months
marks the date before the exhibits opening.
Because that mystery continued to make itself more evident beyond the
inspiration of one painting and fundraiser…
‘She did what she could” red letters were added to with ‘put this money
to work’ found in the passage/parable of ‘the Ten Minas” for in the miracle of
Godspeed… I was given one: a Minas that is, by a student turned patron.
Mystery continually made itself more clear visually and … lead me to
better understanding of another beloved Bible verse;
2Cor 13:14.
May the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ,
And the love of God,
And the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with you all.
<><<><<>< Yup—it’s the Trinity again. This verse, in the mystery of Godspeed became
abbreviated to Grace, Love, Fellowship and a tour. The name given to why on earth I would get in
my car by myself and journey over 21,000 miles in 5 months cris-crossing the
USA before returning home. An unspoken, unknown mission at best, for God knows
‘I’ no saint or missionary.
Nope, I am an Artist. Accept for
locally, perhaps regionally, a fairly unknown one at that. The plan, tied work
commitments, plus goals to grow as an artist, put this money to work, requested
to do so nationally, so did what could, now that my youngest child had turned
22, free to do, was now even enabled. So momma took a road trip, a really big
one. Prayerfully God knew my motive of heart was to
honor and glorify this miraculous gift.
When feeling like am failing at the work at hand, or mission of serving
any one or anybody, or even providing an income with what I do is a little
prompting to my spirit saying
“you may
be an unknown, but you are not a nobody”
Enter in Karen Ann- that indeed is me.
And amazingly in Godspeed it continues to unfold mysteriously with
absolute certainties. This really is each of us word of encouragement.
A footnote in the margin of all my Bibles as I wore them out and going
onto the next new became a painting.
Rejected more or less, it hangs next to my easel awaiting its Godspeed
home yet to be built. Further
understanding of that Scripture led me to better see another long time footnoted
that led me on a tour/journey.
That now is six months out to being a major solo exhibit that a
miraculous gift enabled the foundation of.
A leap of faith to do it. And
quite frankly more and more evident with each faith step as press on, could
only been done this way…
Much rejected is indeed the cornerstone. For as each- Godspeed is this simple Truth
‘we may be an unknown, but we are not a nobody’
we all have a mission – a purpose = a gift to share.
Gods Word inspires us each with its God breathed as our breath to
breathe in and His love to breath out and is relevant to every breath we take in our today’s’
This part II of this entry that marks the 130th Journal, and
6 months to the day of an exhibit opening that feel certain God only knows how it’s
all going to come together. Post it note
on wall by easel reads “God’s not in a panic over this” which was read many a
year ago on a friends wall, thumb tacked by the door. Yup—it’s ALL Godspeed. “Put this money to work” an undeserved gift…
has grown and is still growing. It
wasn’t given to fix the holes in the roof from a static lightning strike, or
fix other things on the long list of broken or not right…
It was given to enable work to be done, that had no physical means to
do otherwise. A painting, a tour, an
exhibit… for what?-- A mission, from a footnote
‘paint the Trinity’ is now a call for life. What is that?
Grace Love…Fellowship. Cannot serve one
and not the other, it’s all a part of One.
One God —by grace, motivated by love enables fellowship with the unknown
mystery—Godspeed.
Frankly so undeserving at best, no saint, more like a mess, pressing on
in this faith walk, step by step, reflecting “At That Moment…” ‘she did what
she could’ ‘put this money to work’ ‘…grace…love…fellowship’ where to begin, is
the middle and the end.
How to paint the Trinity for life.
God only knows, Do know A life can even be a complete mess, but completely blessed with each
breath of it touched by the God breathed Godspeed in Jesus' name the Amen is spoken and it is done.
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| Mary |
The notes and prayer: yesterday mom lost her sibling, Mary. Known to us as Aunt Snook's, a childhood
nickname of ‘snooks’ followed into an adult.
Never even knew her birth name until an adult myself. Prayers for her homecoming, her family and
loved ones that miss her today. 83 year
old mom, while reflecting and also in the grip of all new too; be it technology when
on a new ‘smart pone’ where amazingly to her, pictures can be sent with a
touch, to being the eldest surviving of her family. Grandpa, an Irish orphan, grew much from a little
too, Godspeed. Its all of our heritage
in some way. Grandpa an orphan, had a
heart of adoption himself. Mom therefore
has one surviving sibling, a sister.
Yesterday as sat with mom she remembered the times with her, that sister only a few years older than her first child.
She
also remembered taking her for an ice-cream cone.
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| Mom and brother John ...he passed 2 months ago |
Little, seemingly insignificant memories
make up each of our lives and how we reflect them “At That Moment…” are indeed
each of our ministries, or mission in life … for we ALL are family and adopted into
God’s family by grace Godspeed-- prayerfully with grace, love and fellowship the beginning
middle and the end for all eternal purposes At That Moment… Godspeed
.Next Part III of 130th Journal entry – the bookmarks remain
1 Thes 1:1 through chapter 2, The book of Jonah; Psalms 139, 140, 141, Godspeed
and yesterday Matt 418- 5,6,7 Red letters. And the closing of journal 129
summarized. Pray God inspires how all
this/these is to be shared, if to share, and when – Godspeed indeed. This part I II II more than a blog perhaps this time, and even a Bible Study too? God only knows... again, simply sharing beyond QT chair.
Prayers: to complete ALL the tasks at hand, needs are to paint, frames, advertise, expenses covered to no debt, fix a lot
! Desire is to give exceedingly more than can imagine...
One step at a time. Keep the black
widow away. Keep the enemy away. Work hard with my own hands, mind my own business, and as far as it depends upon me, be at peace with all people. You God the way, the Truth, and the life in
Jesus’ Name. Acts 19:1-6-22-41… all of the chapter also next.
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| 'At That Moment...' Exhibit of the 21K+ solo miles, en plein air, places and people that made up the epic journey...Godspeed |
